This is NOT Over

Monday Oct 23, 1989 Most Becoming, Almost

This entry has almost nothing to do with Donnie Most.

Possibly.

Like the alcoholic I am almost certainly becoming, I am planning to stay off the booze for the next week or so…at least until Halloween. I want to be sober for however long E`{` and I are together so I can enjoy whatever we have that’s not going to last because those are the kinds of things a guy like me enjoys.

And anyway, it’s my life. Ok, “it’s my life” is Lou Reed’s line but I have a life and can claim it as mine. I just can’t say anything poetically original about it.

If these are my “clear thoughts” sober, maybe I better rethink the whole sobriety thing.

What to do while I am staying sober, and when I’m not with E`{` is an important thing to consider because I can’t bug her all the time lest our short term, casual thing becomes even shorter and not so casual.

I’m trashing the James paper and throwing myself into Byron’s Don Juan. I don’t know anything about Byron other than the famous phrase but for guys like me, being “mad, bad and dangerous to know” goes a long way. Even if someone is two-thirds of that, they probably have my full attention.

Or at least two-thirds of it.

Oh, and the staying sober thing is probably going to start Tuesday. After the radio show I told Mindy that I’d make us some drinks. My way of thanking her for saving me at the front desk the other night. No funny business. I think she is seeing some one and so am I. We’re just a coupla kids having drinks and pretending to be grown ups. Not a damned thing wrong with that.